The Artist—AsH

Where melancholy meets method

Thanks for stepping into the dark with me.

This isn’t a safe space—it’s the blacker-than-black corner of the mind where nightmares are born and trauma spills in to fill the silence.

Here, we don’t process pain—we display it.

Memento Mori is for those who prefer discomfort over denial, and see shadow work as a medium, not a phase.

I work in silence. Most days, it’s the only way I can hear the hum of the void—or the voices in my head. Subtle, somber classical music plays when I’m feeling particularly insufferable. No distractions—just whatever creeps its way out of the abyss.

Biomechanical oil painting of a woman-digital

I’m an artist who specializes in portraiture (realism, if we’re being precise), but I have no love for staying between the lines. Surrealism, pop art, body horror, trauma, and the dark arts all bleed into my work. Lines are for other people. My process? Equal parts intuition, ritual, and controlled chaos. Inspiration sneaks in from the dark: quiet rooms, city noise, old horror flicks, restless dreams (and nightmares), and memories that refuse to stay buried.

Digital oil painting of a creepy angel

I’ve chased art for as long as I can remember, but I used to believe survival meant choosing between my creative self and my career. Turns out, I couldn’t have been more wrong. I’ve died a few times—some literal, most not—and every resurrection added to the bones of my studio. Eventually, it became this website too.

Digital painting of a fairy in the woods-dark

I thought survival meant picking a side: paycheck or paintbrush. Turns out, death disagrees—being just one thing is a waste of a life

You don’t have to chose. Be many things. Be all of them.

A photograph of myself for the about section