THE GRIMOIRE

Welcome to The Grimoire

Tales from the crypt of a recovering goth with too much to say and too little sleep
It’s probably wrong to believe there can be any limit to the horror which the human mind can experience ...and the most terrifying question of all may be just how much horror the human mind can stand and still maintain a wakeful, staring, unrelenting sanity.

Stephen King, “Pet Sematary”
“All art is at once surface and symbol. It is the spectator, and not life, that art really mirrors.”

The Picture of Dorian Gray
"In life's darkest moments, death provides profound clarity."

Wednesday Addams

Ash L 11/25/25 Ash L 11/25/25

The Quiet Terror of Being Left

Abandonment isn’t fear of being alone. It’s fear of the moment someone decides you’re no longer worth the space you take up. I’ve carried that terror my whole life, even into the relationships I should have known better than to keep. This is what survival looks like when trust is a luxury you were never taught to afford.

Ash L 6/17/25 Ash L 6/17/25

The Haunted House of Recovery: What Nobody Tells You About Coming Back to Life

Recovery didn’t hand me answers. It gave me silence—long enough for the truth to echo back. This is what it’s like to find yourself inside the haunted house you built trying to survive.